两个选择

came across this on wobao (yes again.. they write decent stuff) many days ago.. decided to share. it's in chinese.. and may sound abit absurd/far-fetched.. anyway, it's just a story...

一对年轻的新婚夫妇因为贫穷，要靠亲友的接济才能生活。一天，丈夫对妻子说：“亲爱的，我决定到很远的地方找一份工作，直到我有条件给你好生活，我才会回来。我不知道会去多久，只求你一件事，等我。我不在的时候对我忠诚，我也会对你忠诚。”

几天后，他到一个大庄园工作，他要求老板把他的薪水存在一个账户里，等他离开那天才把钱给他。年轻人在那里工作了20年，中间没有休假，20年后，他对老板说：“我想拿回我的钱，我要回家了。” 老板说：“好，我给你两个选择：一，我给你钱，你走人；二，我给你三个忠告，不给你钱，你走人。你今晚回房好好考虑再给我答复。”

他回房里想了一晚，决定选择第二，因为在庄园工作了20年，他知道老板是个有智慧的好人。第二天，他对老板说：“我要那三条忠告。” 老板说：“第一，永远不要走捷径，走便捷而陌生的路可能会要了你的命。第二，永远不要对任何可能是坏事的事情感到好奇，否则也可能要了你的命。第三，永远不要在仇恨和痛苦的时候做决定，否则你一定会后悔一辈子。”接着，老板给了他三个面包，两个让他在路上吃，另一个大的面包让他回家后和妻子一起吃。

一天后，他遇到了一个曾经有过一面之缘的人，他高兴地告诉对方他工作了20年，拿者老板给他的面包回家。对方说：“你回家的路太远了，我知道一条捷径，可以缩短一半的行程。”男子正准备走捷径的时候，想起了老板的第一条忠告，决定还是老老实实地走回原来的路。后来他才知道，那人竟是个拦路抢劫的劫匪，所谓的捷径只是一个圈套。

两天后，男子来到路边的一间旅店，打算住一晚。当晚他被一声惨叫声惊醒，跳下床想去了解到底发生什么事。这时他想起了老板的第二条忠告，于是回到床上继续睡觉。第二天起床，店主告诉他：“你是唯一一个活着离开的客人。我儿有精神病，昨夜他大叫客人出来，然后把他们杀死埋了。“

男子接着赶路，第四天黄昏时分，回到自己的家乡，他远远看到自己的小屋，烟囱冒着烟。他看见一个人影，起初以为是妻子，但仔细一看，是个男人。这时，他内心充满了仇恨和痛苦，想跑过去杀了他们。他深呼吸了一口气，想起老板的第三个忠告，决定冷静一个晚上。天亮后，他恢复冷静，决定回到庄园工作。在这之前，他要告诉妻子，他始终忠于她。

他敲了敲家门，妻子打开门，认出了他，扑到他怀里，紧紧地抱住了他。他想把妻子推开，但没有做到。他眼含泪水，对妻子说：“我对你是忠诚的，可你背叛了我...“ 妻子吃惊地说：“什么？我从未背叛过你，我等了你20年。”他说：“那么那个男人是谁？”妻子说：“那是我们的儿子。你走的时候我才刚发现我怀孕了。他今年已经20岁了。”

丈夫拥抱了自己的儿子。在妻子忙做晚饭的时候，他给儿子讲述了自己的经历。接着，一家人坐下一起吃面包。他把老板送的面包掰开，发现里面有笔钱－那正是他20年辛苦劳动赚来的薪水！

moral of the story? the 老板 must be a prophet.. lol.. but his 忠告 are applicable to our daily lifestyle.. =)

在我生命中的每一天

not the original singer, but still a classic duet. =)

原唱：成龙 苏慧伦
作曲：李宗盛

看时光飞驰我祈祷明天
每个小小梦想能够漫漫实现
我是如此平凡却又如此幸运
我要说声谢谢你在我生命中的每一天

看时光飞驰我回首从前
曾经是莽撞少年曾经度日如年
我是如此平凡却又如此幸运
我要说声谢谢你在我生命中的每一天

让我将生命中最闪亮的那一段与你分享
让我用生命中最嘹亮的歌声来陪伴你
让我将心中最温柔的部分给你
在你最需要朋友的时候
让我真心真意对你在每一天
让我真心真意对你在每一天

last week of aug

admist mugging for the horror test this thurs and blowing my nose.. i decided to recall slightly what HAPPIER things that happened.. (we girls can really multi-task.. haha!) tutee postponed tuition from sat to sun, so i had sat afternoon 'off' w him.. After intern on sat morning, went over to see him @ Masters Swimming.. which was held at this ulu pool at farrer park. Oooh, I haven't been to this location in my 21 yrs of life in singapore. I didn't know an hdb estate just pops up nx to rows of shophouses at little india. Really an urban discovery! But i kinda got lost and by the time i found this ulu place, he had finished his race.. -_-" so much for walking cross the farrer park field under the hot sun.. =(

but it was worth it! XD he had 2 hrs to slack before his swimming lessons in the afternoon.. so we took nel down to harbourfront and slacked at the emptier harbourfront centre.. I revisited this place where i last visited it in 2006 jan. hah, glad it's still there! the cheapest pizzas around.. (besides the home-made ones w gardenia bread as ur base...)


"hello?! 7th mth ghost fest?! how come there's no one?"

but he managed to order his pizza and had his full. somehow. haha. but bad things happened. i had to fall sick that night and consequently, postponed my tutee's lesson till.... wed night. how sad. =( just hours before the horror test. lol. I think i'm gonna give myself sufficient time to study before then. >.<

btw, the much anticipated briefing regards to "2 years in beijing (0809)" was held this morning.. it sounded more like a '2-year-hardship-camp' to me. if we're gonna stay on campus, it'll be a 20km bus ride every morning to the intern hospital and the same ride back to campus everyday. o.O lessons' begin at 8, we gotta wake up every single day @ 6am. hah, and the evening bus only comes to pick us up at 7pm.. i'm not imagining e life of a factory worker man.. =| but at least the picture seems clearer now.. but money issue wise, it's still a headache. no cpf, no bank loan.. the only thing they have for us is moe study loan. the next few things in question were: commencement of interest rates for local bank loan/study loan, interest rates for moe study loan etc. haiya. money is always a headache. =(

to end things off, here's an advice for people who frequent ntucanA's mixed rice: order ur dishes carefully.


categorise 小白菜, 草菇, 午餐肉. ans: 小白菜=plant; 午餐肉=meat; 草菇=meat!
fungus are not plants, so they are therefore, considered as ambiguous=meat. that's what my plantbio and the auntie from mixedricestall taught us. oh, try ordering some toufu nx time too. just becareful of any suspicious meat-looking lumps that's lying on it. toufu that grows meat=meat! haha.

多见不怪??

darn pissed.. why is the queue to 179 always so longgggg...

it irks me even more when this longest queue isn't moving an inch. not because there's no bus at the bay, BUT BECAUSE PEOPLE KEEP CUTTING THE QUEUE!!!! i didn't know cutting the queue is such a COMMON thing that no one would say anything to you even if you cut into the queue right in front of him/her. ?!?!!??! why? simply because OTHER PPLE ARE DOING THE SAME THING.. to think i can wait >30 mins for 179.. -_-"

also, there's this stupid loophole which tempts people to walk straight into the queue of others : the 2nd or 3rd 179 bus which stops ALONG the bus bay.. BEFORE e 179 berth. and here's e evidence:
disclaimer: not intended to 'malu'. (if the person in the pic is you, it's just too bad.)


see this guy w orange crumpler walking towards the crowd? a typical act..


179 just left, so this grp of people stand around.. and e grp gets bigger..

so effectively, this loooong queue doesn't move much, cos there's always this grp which walks straight pass the whole long queue (too obvious to say that u missed seeing it) to 'standby' near the bus berth, wait for the opportunity (arrival of 2nd 179), and chiong~ towards to form the crowd at the 2nd bus and/or jump in the queue at the bus berth. -_-" And supposedly there are bus uncles in green are to 'manage' the crowd. what kind of management? !£$*&(@$(* allowing others to cut so that the bus can move off earlier? that's ur job right? get rid of the crowd asap? and people who jump at other's opportunity (to board bus earlier).. i'm disgusted. undergrads? woohooooo~ so much for what education has done to us.. well, maybe you say that's being street-smart.. but SO MANY street-smarts out there: disgusting. especially at the expense of other people's waiting time.

disgust disgust disgust.

there's this saying: "if you can beat them, join them!".. i guess that's why this grp of "street-smart-asses" keeps growing.. However, i will NEVER EVER do such a thing. not in my dictionary. If you're running late, YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE, idiot! If you're dying of hunger, wanna get ur food faster, you're NOT THE ONLY ONE too! baka! 把快乐建立在别人的痛苦上=讨厌. If you're someone i know, i really dislike it when you come over and say 'hi' and just join in the queue.. (unless some idiot has already done so before me)..

I'm just expressing my unhappiness here knowing there'll be NO CHANGE to the situation.. typical singaporean attitute: complain and no action.. what action is appropriate? scold anyone who cuts the queue? people would think i'm crazy.. and there's just too many.. I act myself, so i will wake up at 6.30am for an 8.30am lecture. so that i won't have to see them anymore. *sobs* i pity those who stay so far and yet have to endure this kind of madness... i might envy those who stay hall.. at least you can USE YOUR LEGS and WALK... maybe i wanna try cycling to school huh. >.<

there's another thing which engaged my anger, shall rant about it in another post..

Because I am a Girl

was watching 换换爱, a taiwan series drama.. there was this conversation between e guy and e girl which struck me:

guy: 我发现..你害怕..得到别人的照顾还有帮助。
(i realised that you're afraid of receiving care and help from others)
girl: 我必须相信自己可以..这样活者比较不累啊。
(I have to believe that I can handle.. that way, life would be less tiring)
guy: 可是一般来说..一直坚持靠自己的人..不是更应该比较累吗？你怎么觉得不累啊？
(but usually.. wouldn't someone feel more tired when she has only herself to depend on? aren't you tired?)
girl: 那是别人又不是我.. 我亲身体验的是.. 期待永远不会发生的事情..那样才累吧!
(that's somone else, not me.. my own experience tells me that expecting something that wouldn't even happen.. would be even more tiring~)

really kudos to the female character.. her attitute rocks.. i wished i could be like her.. I guess its ok to be strong.. but anyone would still have his/her weak side which may not be shown to others. we are still humans afterall.. and it's no harm to receive help from others.. especially when you need it.. however, i think when you keep receiving help from others, you somehow feel indebt to him/her.. such that you think you owe the person a favour.. and if he/she doesn't need u to return the favour, it seems to accumulate w the rest of the unreturned-favours.. unknowingly, you'll start to feel tired.. =( i owe this person this.. owe that person that.. this person helped me before..... life that way would be too tiring.. why not pass on the favour? =) ie. be of help to someone else as well, expecting no return of favour.. "credit, debit" its a matter of balance..

though females are seen as e weaker sex, somethings good about being a girl:
girls tend to get into more trouble, yet you're more likely to find help from pple..
girls do not get forced to serve ns.
girls get more recognition when both sexes accomplish something tough.. (like serving NS.. -_-")

girls are naturally more cared for.. the society's like that.. say what gender equality and what not.. we're born physically weaker by nature.. so why not get help when you need it? but when it comes to things like opening a door, carrying a box of things.. i guess these things that we can do ourselves, we should do it.. in other words, we shouldn't depend too much on others for help. self-help is the best help. hah.

and sometimes.. the help you receive is far more than expected..

you're really thank-god grateful.. =)

rain..

the weather's pretty cool.. kept raining.. today's 7th of the 7th lunar month.. aka eastern valentine's day 东方情人节.. it's believed that it'll always rain on this day because these are tears of joy of a couple (牛郎 and 织女) who could only meet each other once in a year.. they would meet on a bridge formed by magpies (i wondered how is it possible).. and spend this one day with their love.. geez.. if i had to love like that for eons, i'd probably die of 相思病 lovesick. haha. but it won't be that bad if you had things to do to occupy yourself.. take ur mind off this feeling.. so they say, it'll always rain on this very day.. which is actually supposed to be sad.. =(

but i'm glad, cos it's sunday! usually it is when pple stay home to have meals together.. i 'cooked' dinner today.. (not really cook, will know why later..) lol.. bro n i decided to give the usual rice & dishes a miss.. we wanted to eat the bao1 that mum bought weeks ago.. which looked like this :



and what does it remind you of? fat and oily 扣肉.. those 3-layer kind of meat cooked in soy that's coated w so much of oil.. they usually go together.. lol.. come to think of it, its really fattening. my bro wouldn't mind.. but i did haha.. so we looked for other deravatives.. and came up with this:



had ham, eggs, tomato n lettuce.. looks appetizing enough.. lol.. half of the 'dishes' are eaten raw.. so really can't consider that cooking.. and to think i ate 4 baos -_-" no diff from eating those fat & oily stuff.. sigh. oh btw, dad dislike this sort of 'inproper meal'.. haha.. so we ate his share as well.. and he had to eat maggi mee by himself.. =(

keep raining~ i love the smell of the rain and the cool weather.

weekend

weekend's supposed to rest huh? i beg to differ. i think i spent even more time out of home than the usual school days. >.< woke up at 6.30am this morning.. as early/even earlier than some of my normal sch days. intern started at 8am.. and lasted 3 hrs. It wasn't that tiring as expected (I was dozing off early in the morning on bus).. and i guess i really do learn more from intern than books. hah.

then went off to zion rd w mel, yl and karen for lunch! good food there~ i sure miss the beancurd. melts in ur mouth! oooo.. lol.. then proceed on w tuition in the afternoon at 2pm. my tutee moved to a new home.. from jw to je.. and 'upgraded' to a condo.. the problem w condo (which i don't like much) is the security system. But i guess that's why people want to stay in condo.. for privacy and security? oh, but i like the design of e new home.. its literally a 'white house'.. haha. I was scared that i might dirty the white dining chair that i was sitting on.. trying to resist putting up my feet up under my butt. (hah. bad habit)

then later, thought it was too boring just to go home and sleep (though very much needed), i went for a little shopping at ikea alone. =) don't really understand why ikea tries to make things so cheap lately.. perhaps they've decided that s'poreans like to go for cheap stuff.. thus keep having sales.. lol.. just like other multiple outlet stores also keep having this trend of endless sales.. lol. but i really like ikea stuff.. simple and thoughtful, designer quality but at cheaper rates.. i guess it may have to do with the way they mass produce these designer items.. hence the price drop. but anyway, quite shocked that i had plenty items in the shopping bag when i was heading for the cashier. then i realised one thing. no plastic bags. lol.. stunned for a moment before i figured out how i was gonna bring them back - bought another shopping bag.. =) i think it'd come in useful.

heh.. was on e way home.. decided to drop by his club (where he coaches swimming) and wait for him to finish his lessons at 6.30pm. lol.. perhaps the beancurd was easily digestible, i started feeling hungry and so was he after his swim. hence we popped by the famous, nus-recommended, 24hr, cheese prata shop. not enough power for nostalgic feelings as my mind wasn't thinking due to the hunger. hah. anyway the prata's good! *yum* but i still miss the mutarbak at bukit timah - al azhaar.. heh. it was already nightfall by the time i got home..

captured something that brought back memories of PBL (sec2 project work: Problem Based Learning).. it's not a common scene after the introduction of these ez-link smart cards. heh. our problem: bus ticket stuck behind seat is an unsightly scene.. closer observation tells me tt ticket price is $1.70. wow.. i'm proud of spore's bus services (sbs, even same name as my sch).. they solved this problem before we tried to solve it for them 7 years ago.. haha.. they're efficient! (in price increase too.. $1.70.. >.<)

(sry for the blur pic cos the bus was shaky)

e eq of success

came across this article on wo3bao4 (mypaper) like quite long ago.. just wanna take note of it:

success is not "attitude + ability" but "attitude x ability" which means to say if u lack either, most prob u won't succeed (in tt thing u're doing, be it jobs, projects, school work...). attitute means how u treat tt thing u're doing.. do you give priority to it? do you think about it all the time? do you get down to doing it even? attitute determines how motivated and how committed one stays throughout tt thing.. and attitude could be changed, by influence, emotions, stress.. ability then includes knowledge, intellegence and experience.. intellegence (IQ) maybe inborn.. but knowledge and experiences could be gained by sharing, talking, exposing oneself to the situation.. =)

so.. it means to say tt you can't succeed if you have e abilities but no attitute towards tt thing (0 x C = 0). 0, not even a chance. the other way round, if you have attitude, unless you're born a retard (IQ=0) w no experience and learn nothing before, you still have chances of success.. (A x A' = something but 0). lol.. sounds very scientish >.<

so let's say you compare someone who is half-hearted (A=5) but capable (knowledge+IQ+exp=2+3+3=8) with someone who is whole-hearted (A=10) but not so capable, not so experienced (1+3+1=5).. 5 x 8 = 40 while 10 x 5 =50. (assuming both are equally intellegent) haha. i think i'm trying to prove that attitude is more impt than capabilities. lol. but not tt convincing..

oh yeah. i forgot to add that I've always believed tt luck plays a huge role too (since PSLE). therefore, i give the equation a slight change: "success = (attitude + ability)^luck". =) non-sense. luck is about intuition. haha.

week 2

uhhhh.. seem to be in a constant-sian-state since the beginning of sch.. is it because it's last year? or perhaps it's because i feel so compelled to do better than last sem and hence the stress? or maybe because what the teacher teaches was similar to what was thought just few months back, yet i seem to have recalled no-thing.. haiz.. school blooos..

that explains why i have nothing to blog but lyrics. heh. i like to copy and paste~

藍眼睛

演唱：苏打绿 张韶涵

你的眼睛蓝色的一面海
总是太安静像是会有暴风雨
呼唤一个夏季也许那天都逝去
海面闪着泪像梦境

你的眼睛闪烁的一面海
平静地叹息洒了一片碎玻璃
穿过一座岛屿也许那天都死去
海浪都沉默累不累

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁寂寞的云烟
下雨天没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞失眠的海面
地平线彩虹消失在一瞬间

其实从头到尾谁又得到了水仙
其实从头到尾走了错误的航线
让海水都没去你我的脸闭上眼
回到原点一个语言两个世界

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁寂寞的云烟
下雨天没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞失眠的海面
地平线彩虹消失在一瞬间

小情歌

词曲:吴青峰
演唱:苏打绿

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

tutorial..

tutorials. urgh. one hour tutorial. one hr travel to sch. half hr travel back home.

one hr tut < one hr to + half hr fro (+ one n half hr doing e tut)

in order to balance e equation, i should stay more than just one hr in school. right right? -_-" or maybe we should start labs already.. then i won't be complaining. :)

btw spanish is fun! or rather learning a new lang is fun.. when was the last time u've ever done so? when u were picking up ur first lang? sec lang? third lang? haha.. omg.. dialects count? i wonder why we aim to know as much as we can.. so that the more the merrier? the more u can communicate better? =| i think it's simply for the fun of it.

恋爱甜点

漫漫夏日,骄阳似火,十二星座们也难免感到心情郁闷,只有当面对眼前一个个风姿卓越,尽情表现的帅哥靓仔时,方能感受到一丝清新与活力。在这个男人属于消费品的夏日里,究竟谁会更合你的口味,有幸成为你消夏解暑的小甜点呢

双鱼座的夏日甜点:水瓶座

具有独特浪漫气质的双鱼浑身上下都透着娇美与可爱,十二星座中的楚楚可怜的双鱼座女生,是最招人爱怜和向往的,她们最害怕孤独与寂寥,漫漫的夏日更是会令鱼儿心里烦燥,而此时的她们也最易被水瓶座男生的独特与与众不同深深吸引,最如同炎炎夏日下一杯看了就能让人觉得清爽无比的冰震饮料,虽然你连他的成分都不知道,但这也无法挡住你将其一口气喝下,也许它并不是你最为喜欢的,但却是最能解渴的。

白羊座的夏日甜点:双鱼座

双鱼座似乎生来就与羊儿有着特殊的缘份,从天生特质看起来好象有点相距甚远,好象八竿子打不着,但柔情似水的鱼儿偏偏就是会让羊儿MM遇到,并能在短时间内使羊儿发展到近似于痴迷的地步,鱼儿身上所表现出的浪漫情怀对于羊儿MM有着致命诱惑力,使她无法忘怀。她们之间的相逢,恰似那天汗逢甘霖,虽不轰轰烈烈,但也总难舍难分,他们之间的相互吸引,会使你有点无法解释。

haha. lame.

不能说的秘密

词:方文山
曲:周杰伦

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想像你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

开学咯！

oh man.. why am i so high about starting sch. actually it has been a boring day. lesson at school merely took 2 hrs. at least the teacher's nice. geez.. can't imagine we have so little modules, yet so much to cover at the end of the term. =( anyway.. the best thing which happened to me today was a BIG HUG from lp da jie (big sis).. =D it brightened up my after-camp blues. she's really nice and encouraging.. even if what she said might be white lie (tt she's prd of me).. but i appreciated that sentence very much. =) it made me felt appreciated.. (haha, sry no other words can fit le) gd luck to us for this coming year. (yeah both final yr le).. then it set me off again w the post-camp stuff as i sat down to have lunch w mel.. =|

then i slacked around in sch.. from src to his hall.. did some revision (act hardworking/too bored) while waiting to go shopping w him for flippers.. (yes flippers.. those fish-like stuff) but end up he's too tired to go so far.. so we postponed it and went to jec instead. yay. the bookfair was still on.. haha.. first day of sch and we each bought some books (nonono.. not tb.. we're not tt hardworking) to 'celebrate' this start of sch. -_-" we bought some fiction and manga.. haha.. and here's what i'll be reading the nx 40 days (i think i'd take longer than tt)..

it was a last minute catch.. not sure if this book's good or bad. anyway i've been quite out of touch w my 'spiritual side' for the past few mths. is it a sign that i should return?? i've finished what i hoped to do, accomplished what commitments i had .. even though it may not be that well.. perhaps it is time that i return..

tmr's the start of the 2nd STARs War! am so gonna sit in front of the comp the entire day.. haha.. and i can't believe i actually have a day free tmr because there's no lab and no tut! =) cheers!

hols have ended..

argh. edventure is lagging. i guess probably many are online trying to see if there's notes for tomorrow. great. first day of school starts from tomorrow! =) btw, i'm just one of the kiasu ones to see if there's really notes.. for.. thurs' lecture. haha.

hmm.. holidays have come to an end. a hectic final year awaits me.. perhaps the big things that will hit me include fyp, internship(now dunno where we'd go..), starting to settle issues regarding last 2 years over in china.. hmm.. besides that would be usual studies.. mugging.. tuition.. =| that's my life. i guess his would be more exciting.. =)

caught several dramas over the holidays.. as far as i recall.. i've watched:













































































i'm satisfied.. =) happy sch-reopen!

双鱼座..

双鱼座的人喜欢以”也许”，”或许”来代替是与否的回答，但那或许只是毫无原因的规避．双鱼座的人对明天不会抱持着期待对昨天却又有种直觉的认知，对於今天则以温柔容忍的方式面对．有时她说的话也颇令人费解，这是因为她对於真理的了解，是无法以言语来表达的．双鱼座的人一直都在燃烧自己，照亮别人的生命．

双鱼座的人看来有些柔弱，但轫性却相当强，可以很快的就适应各种环境及人，事，物、她有相当好的才能，想像力也相当丰富，随时都在做梦，看来有些不够实际；但个性上相当多变，所以会有些令人觉得难以捉摸，就好像是个外星人．

她的感情充沛，并且处处站在别人的立场着想，所以常会牺牲自己来完成别人的事情，她是体贴的，又有许多浪漫的思想．

双鱼座的人有时会有点不负责任，以逃避的方式面对该负的责任，这点是需要改进的．

nanyang experience?

hmm.. today went for the freshmen welcome ceremony w mh.. to 凑热闹.. heard Dr Su's address to the freshies regarding experiencing nanyang.. and the most direct way to do so would be to stay in hall. =) seemed like not just long ago i had to put on the freshman gown and do the light-up ceremony.. and now.. i'm already final year! geez.. and after all these years i have no idea what 'experience nanyang' means.. lolx.. i guess its just a catchy phrase..

what stay hall.. move in and pay their rental rates.. so that the school can mould u into a better person? because u spend more time at hall than at home, so it makes u more independent? more mature? more freedom? i guess that's true to a certain extent bah.. but it all depends on how u spend ur time/ what u do in school besides studies.. =) how u evolve also depends largely on how pple around u shapes u.. ur thinking.. ur way of working w them.. ur ability to accomodate.. heh. sounds cheem. i guess i had limited evolution then.. no one to interact w at home besides parents.. no group work w them.. haha.. but true.. since they are the closest, they mould my way of life.. my thoughts..

when i was a freshman, the reason i didn't stay hall was partly because i thought i ought to spend more time w my parents.. partly because i thought they could help me w schoolwork.. haha.. another reason was $$.. as i realised it was a pretty big sum incurred if i did stay hall.. so in order to save that sum of money for the last 2 years.. yup, i chose not to apply.. thinking that it was no point since i stay 'so near' sch.. -_-"

but now.. i have an urge to try to stay hall.. at least i have a try to live outside of home.. in preparations for the last 2 years.. in somewhere so far from home.. hmm.. but currently i'm still tight on budget.. heh.. so probably will consider to do so near exam periods.. so that i can become focused on studies? =) that's just my hope.. w him around.. i dunno what'll happen. but i shall stay focused. so.. should i try to 'experience nanyang'? i'd think i'm too old for that.. haha.. but at least i try to be more independent.. i say.. shall give this a review 2 mths later.

yawn.

i need to sleep. yet i need to know how is he.

是因为牵挂还是思念...
是因为舍不得还是不甘心...
是因为想太多还是不能入睡...
不知道... 只因为爱你，所以想念着你..