a new beginning..?

lack of updates. went into hibernation after foc ended. for some time. this post is gg to be a long one. cos i have too much to reflect upon.

foc has ended. it went well, but not too well, or rather could have been better?! i've to say i'm a person who can't take stress too well. and i tend to go into a state of trance, perhaps as an avoidance? or perhaps my mind really can't think in time. =( maybe should have a quick recap of what happened.. maybe i'll even add in the cockups too.. >.<

dayone - erm lorry was late, didn't manage to borrow loudhailer from sch cos the previous org didn't return after borrowing it. I felt insecure and somehow crippled w/o the loudy in hand. I wasn't confident enough to start off with. I'll admit that I can't speak to big crowds. My tongue gets tied and there seems to be a lesion somewhere. =( Scary. and before i realise it, i was alone and the programs still had to be carried out. So i played the relay msg game w the freshies. me > cgl > gls > freshies. the camp seems quiet without some shoutings from the loudy.. but heck. I guess at least the games were played and it was only day one. i consoled myself. but dayone was the most relaxed day but i was mentally stressed out from thinking how to face the big crowd of 80 freshies w 30 over seniors. (I have to peifu other camps' cp to handle more than 120 freshies in a single camp)

daytwo - this day was supposed to be the most packed out of all. pool games began at 8.30am. again, i tried to address to the crowd w/o e loudy. it failed because i didn't know what to say. cgl had to help me express my words. shibai. =( so midway i played the relay game again. gd that things still get started in the end. something major happened on the log side. chair overslept, vchair n welfare went off to assess the situation. things didn't seem so good to handle as the sky turns cloudy.. had to prepare backup plan in the event of rain. but w the log being held up elsewhere, there was no way things could be done. =( but luckily chair woke up in time to pick up the situation. >.< the sky cleared just as the situation gets more time to be solved. so the programmes went along as planned.

for the entire day, i had a question stuck in my mind. headache. sp - to do or not to do. it was tearing me down somehow. cos the day before, the game of sp had already begin w letter writing. (which i admit we shouldn't have started even in the first place.) but just to prove that the ratio is so screwed that we needed additional 30 guys to play the game in order to get 66 pairs of SPs, the game started but headed to nowhere. (kill me pls) so for the entire camp, the idea of sp became a torture to me instead of tingling memories.. I really have no idea who came up w this idea. is it because we're uni? sdu needs to see something like this in order to get sponsors? freshies came for the camp to make a sp? =( i had nice memories of it. i want them to experience what i've experienced too. but given such situations, i had absolutely no idea how to get things done. seniors to pair w a few freshies? even if we had to do that, it would be 3 freshies to one senior. hah. i can feel my mind going crazy about this issue once again. as if i have to conduct another sp just tmr. =( nightmare? a sweet dream?

daytwo was supposed to be looooooong. if not for the lousy weather. initiation was going well as planned. then it started to pour heavily. =( i think the weather's really screwed up, this period should have been the hottest of the entire year. but i dun see why it kept raining. haiz. so daytwo ended w the freshies saved from the evil forces of the seniors. sigh. i agree we should do anti-raindance before camps. to ward off the rains. u must think tt i'm mad.

daythree - amazing race day! woohoo~ again. the rain seemed to have drenched the freshies but definitely not their spirits.. i hoped so. i guess this was the most gruelling day for the pple behind e scenes (which is my comm). because after long hours out of school, they had to rush to the ending point to carry out the nx task - fright night. i guessed the effect was better than what we had for seniors camp. =) great job by fellow programmers. but it also showed the ugly side of the freshies.. tsk tsk.. it was only between the prgs and freshies. i'm sure the rest didn't know. but it was scary from the feedback i got. =( did we have such abuse last year? i only heard there were much 'hands' over the bodies.. but kicking someone underneath the table was madness! i wondered what were they thinking.. stayed up the entire night.. had gd talk w some pple. it made me think about what else could have been done regarding this camp. perhaps the GLs should have attended all the progs meetings.. even they should have given ideas of what kind of games they deem fit to play for focs.. (instead of complaining later on) =( lotsa thoughts.. before i could stone, the sun was already up. and before i could close my eyes. the breakfast was here and we're to set off in hours' half time. it was the longest night for me.

dayfour - the weather proved to be a challenge. again. the overcast skies turned into downpour as we headed towards sentosa for beach games. oh man. how to play games on the beach with the rain. and would there be any shelter at sentosa? then i was told to make a decision whether to head for sentosa or alternatively, back to ntu and save the entrance fees$$$.. took quite some time to decide (i can't seem to decide on things very well) and we decided to head for sentosa w the little drizzle and overcast sky. glad we did that, cos before long, the sky cleared up and it was sunny again~ time for beach games~ but the timings were off.. some stations lasted longer than the other.. so some ogs had to wait for other ogs.. but overall i still thought things went ok.. until.. came the afternoon. when it was a little rush and messed up. i decided to give up the around sentosa again since there wasn't enough time (bus come too early, my fault) so sent everyone in my comm back to ntu to help w the night. it was painful to see tt the arrangements wasn't planned.. but luckily things still got sorted out in the end. though it was much waiting on the freshies' side.. i assumed they were busy w their skits.. it wasn't a long night and it was the only night that i could rest. the only thing in mind was the nx day - finale. i was doing last min stuff - sewing headbands for tmr.

dayfive - woke up to find someone beside. stunned for a while. but realised i was late. nope. the freshies are too early. so is the breakfast. the freshies are already up and heading for breakfast. omg. my prog are still in bed! >.< had to rush them a little, make them move things to src and set up before they could even settle for breakfast. =( sigh. gave a little briefing to start off the finale. it was still hard to speak even with the loudy. it was me. but heng my boss came.. he sort of saved me times n times. (from giving briefings, tt is) and in the afternoon. again. for the big headache.. sp.. as many were complaining why there wasn't any conclusion to it. was told they were very disappointed. but well. nx time we should set quotas for gender ratio. =( hopefully nx year will be better. the ending seemed a little weird. the location wasn't too gd w another foc having station game at the back. the mood wasn't too good either (even after finale). the prize presentation also abit weird. chair announcing results and vchair giving out prizes?! hmm. apologies to him. i should have taken the loudy instead. but i was blanked out regarding the sp issue. =( nonetheless.. everything seem to conclude in the end.. as the freshies headed home after the not-so-tired camp..

this post has gotten too long before i realised it. there's still things i wanna add though. but as time passed.. i tend to forget much of things that i wanted to write down. again. what have i achieved out of this camp? being a sole cp isn't really that great. i had a choice - to get someone to fill up the post but he/she will slack. or to do-it-yourself and receive help from my prgs. i chose the latter. but i didn't delegate jobs too well. perhaps i could have diff ACPs for each day. =P overall, i feel that i've still not overcomed my barrier of speaking in front of crowd. indeed. presentations and such.. i'm not cut for it. chui. how am i gg to survive my fyp? =(

one camp. five days. twelve hours of sleep. i survived. blessed me.

hp-ootp

hmm. watched harry potter today. the latest of the series : order of the pheonix. it wasn't as awesome as I expected. Haha.. kind of rushed i would think.. too many events yet some parts of the original story had to be cut off. =( so.. just followed through e events.. then the climax wasn't very obvious also?! lol. then the ending too. haha. nvm I think i complain too much le. should read the book. its better. =) oh, the last of the series' coming out soon? in erm 9 days time..

but anyways, watched the show at a new location: tiong bahru plaza. heh. tiong bahru was my first home, but the place has changed too much for me to recognise it. not until I saw some photos of the old buildings in kopitiam. i missed the famous bao at the market.. aiya. wat am i talking about. I just want to comment that the cinema there isn't too bad. but JP is better! haha. at least the aircon is colder.. >.<

so, come tmr. gg out whole day to settle prog stuff and later evening dinner w S23~ still haven't figured out where we should dine leh.. =( shall go think about it now. (yay i managed to update almost daily~ maybe I should make it a habit?!)

transformers

robots in disguise.

ooo, just came back from watching the movie w minghui. It was awesome. though the plot could still be improved a little.. =) I think boys would really loved it very much.. haha, can't really remember how long ago we were still watching cartoons and listening to the cool theme song. lol. Not forgetting Ninja turtles, which also came out in the movies not long ago.. Superman, Batman all the funny superheroes.. oh yeah, lastly - one of my favourite - Captain Planet. =D It would be very educational to have it screened in the cinemas.. haha.. esp w the global crisis now..

Hmm, today was an eventful day.. really enjoyed much. Firstly, the weather was too good to get up in the morning. But I already made a pact w rod to visit him today with yl.. Haha, yeah. Finally after 5 mths he's back. Its quite amazing how he transformed after coming back.. lol.. yes, transformers. -_-" Prior to his exchange, he's pretty much caught up w juggling between ntu, monash, doing sports, gg gym etc. In short, his days are always packed. Haha. but after coming back from exchange to south africa, he has learned to adapt w the pace of life there so much that he doesn't seem to want to get back to the pace of life here.. which means to say, he now takes things slowly.. well.. just hope tt he doesn't get too laid back bah. x.x

then it was meeting, at city hall. I don't hope tt its the last meeting that we're gg to have.. Haiz, though I know for sure there's gg to be more coming during the camp itself. >.< sigh. Just needa tie up the loose ends and hope to have things gg as planned.. =) but i did look forward to seeing mh after my meeting today. heh. and he came just nice when the meeting ended.. then had bk for dinner.. walked around to get ideas for b'day pressies.. then while the night is still young, we decided to watch transformers~ woohoo~! Haha, it was a last min decision. and the most suay~ thing occurred to us:

We bought the tickets just 10 mins before the show.. then went around the nearby shops, he went toilet.. 10 mins later when we came back and about to take out tickets to enter.. we couldn't find it!!!! >.< It was quite strange, in the sense we just saw the tix 10 mins ago.. and now its nowhere to be found! Then we began searching in our bags, in every single possible location that it could be placed in.. =( Just as all hopes were lost, we tried to see if the counter could reprint the tickets for us.. lol.. cos just 10 mins ago we bought them.. and tada! the tickets were lost and found. -_-" If i recalled correctly, I should have been holding them.. =( sorry dalaohu, made him panic and check through the entire bag and almost disappointed, ready to go home and sleep.. haiz.. >.< but i'm glad that we did not waste the tickets. haha.

Moral of the day: if you can't find things where it should be, then most prob you should ask the lost-and-found. =)

Yup, its almost 2am and he's not sleeping yet. I wonder why.....

holidays

holidays are gone pretty fast. only left with 1/3 of it. While most are taking up part-time, earning pocket money & stuff.. I'm home most of my free time. =) and it may not necessary be a bad thing afterall~ I'm a "homely" person.. haha

I've always looked forwards to holidays, especially this 3mth long break. as we should always plan ahead, holiday plans started way even before the exams ended.. Haha, typical student mentality. while others were looking for jobs, going for interviews & stuff, I've decided to spend this holidays on doing stuff that I like to do.

Firstly, being committed to FOC did take up some time this holidays, especially seeing to issues not settled as the camp date draws near.. At first it was 1 year of planning, nx was left with 3 weeks to seniors camp, now? 7 days to actual camp. =) Being in orientation committee is truly fufilling, doing it not only for the freshies, but also in hope that this FOC spirit will be continued by the nx batch, nx nx batch.....

Next, travelling's always exciting. even when it means just crossing the straits of johor. =) I went malaysia twice this holidays, first on ODAC trip to gunung stong and the second on CampOutReach trip to Pahang & KL. The trips can't be compared, as each was of a different purpose. The first trip was a test of my physical & mental limits. And I can say I'm pretty chui in both aspects. Haha. The second trip was not intended to test myself, but to see others challenge themselves. Both trips really made me learn more about myself, and about the people around me. =) The third one I'll be going is to genting highlands. this trip's main purpose is for me to relax and catch up w some pple..

Third, not that I like studying very much, but I think its good to have some clinical experience outside curriculum. My dad brought me to his friend's clinic at the beginning of the holidays, and since then, I've been going there almost once a week. Get to see herbs, uncle could explain certain stuff to me, and also get to see how to run a small business. But I guess this isn't what I really wanna be. First, it involves capital. Second, it involves lotsa time and effort running such a business, facing competition from everywhere. But it's definitely an experience, dealing with herbs and customers. =)

Fourth, watch dramas! it may seem pointless but I do enjoy watching them. Beats reading thick thick books just to get the same story.. Haha.. but it is so addictive that you can't control.. and you end up sleeping at weird hours. (definitely not very healthy). Other things i did during the holidays.. learned how to cook (abit), organised chalet for post-exams celebrations.. perhaps the nx thing I should get down to do is to pack my room. =P

holidays, what have you done? were they memorable? =)

cold my foot

hmm, just so happen to be bumming around at home on a saturday night.
had nothing planned in mind. So i set out to revive my blog which perished on the date of the first post. (yes I have to remind myself tht i deleted it accidentally) So, i decided to keep things simple. white background, black words.

hmm, the climate crisis day, 7th July 2007. so let me be reminded that the penguins are still trying to make a living up in the north. before i find something else to replace it with.. it's gonna be there.. well, penguins are one of my favourite animals. thanks to the artist from deviantart for the wonderful painting. =)

ok, back to my world. these days the weather can be unbearable. But just as it was raining this morning, cool and the most suitable for lazing in bed, i had to get up. =( perhaps if not for the short nap yesterday I could have gotten up today more willingly.. lol. blame myself for the bad sleeping habits.. Off to sch to meet my fellow programmers. Despite the lousy weather, the attendance was still good! =) In fact it was one w the highest attendance so far..

meeting went ok.. made some last discussion to some part of the camp programme (cannot reveal) and was very glad that people contributed to the discussion. =) really give thanks to have this bunch of witty and enthusiastic pple with me~! alright.. its 1 week to the actual FOC. preparations in placed, i'm almost giving my whole life to it. Really hope everything goes well and best if everything goes as planned. =) but I have to remind myself to be flexible...

Alright, maybe some more ramblings nx week, summary of how the holidays were spent. I can't believe the new academic year is about to start soon. >.<

School of Biological Sciences, NTU. Freshman Orientation Camp 06/07 - TaKhent : 16-20/7/07 : let the games begin~